Ode to Kristi

My favorite 14 year old sister wrote this... but I would have, if I'd have thought about it.

a promise to myself: ive decided to prove people wrong. To do whatever makes people happy inlife. to believe in myself. I will never care what people think of me. and to only show wisdom when needed. besides, for now, i need it the most. To show the world something different. and be happy where ever i am. to think about what i have, and where i am. and where im going. i wont think about all my flaws. i want to be beautiful inside & out. i wont live in a fantasy land. ill be right here beside you. and i learn to love like never before. i'll try new stuff. ill read my bible. i will find what i havnt discovered yet. i wont make promises. and Ill be a better person. ill work hard for the right things, and ill keep my nose clean. i will be happy with what i have and who i am. I'll find who i am. ill change, try new things, go new places. Comfort people i love. ill show people who im gonna become. ill be nicer then necasary. and ill let them know that you can be happy in a cardboard box. because if i dont start now, i wont know how to be happy wherever i am. ill learn the dangers of selfishness, and ill cry when i need to. i will never let myself get too stressed that i wont know the meaning of fun. i wont get scared of the future, and forget everything ive promised myself. i wont block out pain, i will not harden my heart. pain is only a passing lesson. ill learn every lesson. I wont make things all about me. ill listen to instruction, and what im told. i'll believe in what people dont. i want to end up somewhere great. poor, rich, lonely. Ill have everything i need in reality, nothing at all. Ill memorize this up & down.
and i can only start now.